Sudden thoughts once again

Was thinking of a lot now..
having different moods and feelings..
some happy, some sad..
some joyful, some moody..
a lot of people talk to me about things..
about EOY and stuff..
i just can't feel the EOY stress yet..

I'm numb.
numb of being like this..

I just want her accompany me more..
i'm just asking something that maybe all guys want,
i know it is hard for her, but am i asking too much?

I'm sorry for what these days..
hope she will forget me..
i am trying my best not to disturb her as much as i can now..

It is weekend.
and every weekend, i feel lonely and sad..
i just want her to be with me, what i always wish for..
feel so much like crying now..
tears filling up as i think of it..

What i fear most is coming closer and closer..
how can i concentrate on EOY and other stuff like this..
tears just came running down..

I just want her to know that i love her..
i agree, agree that i'm scare that she will fall for another guy..
i'm not trying to freak her out..
i just want her to know that i'm serious for her..

She once said that i have the features of a pentagon..
i just want to prove to her that i'm not..
i am for her.

She dislike smokers..
i quit the habit for her,
she doesn't that i'm trying really hard to do it..
hope she will give me the support more..

Sometimes because of her,
i quarrel with my family and close friends..
she doesn't know.
i don't care, i am glad about it, because what i do is always for her,
cause i really love her.

I just hope things will change when i wake up tomorrow in the morning.
hope that i will be better.

A man dies when the time is right.
A man cries when the time comes.

Lovely but boring day.

okay, let me blog about ytd..
ytd was totally boring in the morning..
but ly went online and i ask if he wants to go out..
so we plan and went out at about 4+?
to bugis.. and went to goldenlandmark
i bought SMOKE deck from theory11.
and then went to army market at beachroad
i bought the watch thingy again.. ly bought some stuff too.
later on.. we went to batok and slack with YUMA again..
got evon, hazwan, and the rest lah.. quite alot ytd..
they were playing soccer and so ya.. i nvr play..
quite boring ytd lah.. BOREDOM SUCKS.
okay. so this is about it lor.. bye!

vinia, you went out with her again..
i told you i dont mind, but i do.
maybe im just jealous, you always go w friends.
they are always 1st, im always somewhere behind.
i really just wish to see you..
more than one week already.
then now, i still havent get to see you.
i just wish you will change for me?
i really wish u will.
i really love you vinia.

1st day of lecture..

hello!
this is gonna be a short post cuz im going to slp soon.
woke up at 5 30 today..
went to batok to meet wj and went cck
wait for some of them at cck mac..
reach hta at about 7++?
lucky we are early this time round,
not like the other time for LMSC.
this time was PK, police knowledge..
haha whole day lecture.. from 8 till 5pm?
can die inside the hall DDDD:
somemore i miss her so much.. arghh..
tml is another 9hrs inside hta.. )):
lets see how it is gonna be!

i wish i can meet her out on fri or sat.
the best is both! :D i love her! <3
i really miss her. more than one week i nvr see her oready..
hope to see her soon if not i will die :/

I MISS YOU VINIA!! CAN YOU SEE THIS???
:D LOVELOVELOVESSS

NOTHING MUCH.

OKOK.. I TINK I WILL ALWAYS POST IN CAPS LE... HAHA.. KK.. TODAY IS THE 1ST MONDAY TAT I HAVE MY "HOLIDAY". MUM STILL OVERSEAS.. DAD WORKING.. SIS OUT.. SO I STAYED AT HOME ROT. MSN AND MSG A FEW DUDES... SOME NVR REPLY? OK.. NVM... WATCH X-MAN2.. SIS BF WAN.. HE GOT ALOT OF DVD.. WHICH I CAN WATCH.. MAYBE WATCHING ANOTHER LATER.. WATCHED "THE ITALIAN JOB" LAST NIGHT.. DAMN SIAN THESE FEW DAYS.. NVM.. CAN MSG PPL CNA LE.. MONEY MONEY IS SPENDING LIKE HELL.. SO DUN WAN GO OUT.. SAVE THEM FOR MY BILL.. KK NTH MUCH LE.. BYE! CHEERS!

can we patch? i noe it is impossible..
i hope i can have another chance..