Bleeding Heart

Have been listening to Watching Waiting these few days..
had alot of things going thru my mind..
memories and other stuff..
my body mind and soul is damn tired..
my heart is long dead..
it bleed and bleed.
is there someone out there who can help me?
i hope you still didnt forget me..
i will remember for the rest of my life..



one month oready.. the pain is still there..
nothing can heal it now.

A lonely weekend

I feel damn useless today..
she going back and i didnt even get to see her.
she told me that we can meet on thurs..
then she cancel it because she says she want to pack and study..
i agreed.
she say today meet.. i agree.
the last min she tells me she doing last minute packing..
i waited downstairs.. waiting for her to reply my sms..
hours under the sun, she dont know..
i feel so useless.. no one knows..
just one minute will do.. she didnt give me..
i really dont know whats wrong with me..
i just know that sometimes i really need her.
but she is always never around when the time comes..
she got her reasons, excuses..
going to be two weeks that i never see her..
i really start to miss her alot..
i just want to see her before she goes..
am i asking too much???
can anyone tell me, what did i do wrong..
a guy just wanting to see her girl more..
be with her more..
IS THAT REALLY TOO MUCH?
i really want to know why is it like that.. .. .. ..

am i seriously asking too much from her.